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Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Assalamualaikum


hello everyone.




I feel this picture describes me much.


I fear failure, 

yes, eyja sangat takut pada kegagalan. takut kalau gagal, eyja tak boleh nak hidup. tapi bila eyja semakin dewasa, eyja belajar yang sebenarnya bagus bila ada kegagalan dalam hidup sebab tak semua orang sempurna. kegagalan ni selalu ajar kita bagaimana kena kuat, kalau dah jatuh bagaimana nak bangun semula dan kegagalan sememangnya akan buat kita lebih kuat dari sebelumnya.


eyja yakin, bila kita gagal, kita akan belajar banyak benda and this is the right time where you can find your best people. eyja pernah gagal sebab masa tu scholarship kena tarik. masa tu sedih sangat rasa macam teruknya hidup, *amende la aku ni hahah*. tapi arwah mama eyja buatkan semuanya positif balik. and Alhamdulillah tanpa disangka-sangka, biasiswa eyja bagi peluang kedua. everyone deserves the second chance right?



I love being home alone

suka sangat, rasa macam boleh buat apa-apa yang nak in my private space. being alone too much also can make you depressed. hehh



I want to get away

yessss, I really want to get away. please anyone bring me to anywhere in this world, I want to see the world so much. hahah


I am always hungry

lagi-lagi bila kena deal banyak benda, belajar apa semua, masa tulah perut berkeroncong 'lapar,,lapar,,". rasanya duit eyja banyak spend untuk makanan je kot. nasib baik saya tidak gemuk. hahah jangan riak weh, kau tak tahu apa yang ada di hadapan mu LOL



I am hard to understand

hmm, eyja pun tak faham dengan perangai sendiri. selalu sangatt. hahahah yang kena deal benda-benda mengarut ni my baemax la. sampai dia pun naik stress. hahaha thank youuu <3 p="">


I love surprise.

hahah, semua orang suka surprise, siapa je tak suka lagi2 bila dapat daripada orang tersayang. tapi tak adelah surprise sampai naik limousin, makan kat KL tower macam hafiz mahamad and syafiqah aina tuu, hewhew. kesian kaum adam yang kena tag tuuu, kita perempuan kenalah terima mereka seadanya, jangan expect too much nanti sendiri kecewa.


and kadang-kadang benda kecil pun sebenarnya boleh rasa bahagia sangat. yang penting effort dia nak gembirakan kita tu ada. tapi my baemax kureng sikit bab-bab macam ni. so taklah mengharap pun. yang penting dia sihat gemuk nak kahwin dengan eyja tak cari lain okay dah. LOL



I love beaches.

suka sangat pantaiiii, tapi bukan pantai air papan kat rumah sendiri. hahaha



I have big dream

yes, I have it and on my way to chase it if Allah wills.



I talk to my self

selalu sangattttt. suka bagi opinion pada diri sendiri, sesi muhasabah diri bersama diri sendiri. hipnosis diri sendiri bila nafsu shopping menguasai diri LOL



okay lahh , tu jeee, hee siapa sini sama macam eyja?

okay bye2

further study or finding a job?

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Assalamualaikum


yayyy, so I have finished all my examination papers and all the assignments for this last semester, I just submit the entrepreneur assignment this morning. say Hooray for me guys. I cannot believe that I am able to get to this stage finally. but I still have my thesis to be done before I will be the-so-called-penganggur. hahah



many people ask me, "DJ, what would you do after you finish your studies?". some persuade me to study, some ask to find a job and some people told me to get married! hahaha that one will be the last thing I will do after I settle down all my problems first.



actually I am still thinking what should I do after finishing my studies. I am interested to continue studies, however money will be a problem since I am not sure whether I can get the scholarships or not and another thing is I am not sure which field of studies should I pursue to do my master or maybe PhD fast track? I am still wondering about that. hmm actually there is one lecturer has offered me to further PhD fast track but she told me at the early semester. so I am not sure whether she still wants to offer me or not. huhu last thing she said that she wants to see my examination result first.



Alhamdulillah, I am quite lucky because I have got scholarship from Endowment UTM which I do not have any bond with the scholarship for my undergraduate studies, so that means I am free from any debt. hehe :)



but finding a job is another challenge since I am quite afraid. hahah well it is normal for a fresh graduate to have this kind of worries on their mind. "Am I competent to get any job? What if I do get the job but somehow I cannot accomplish any task given? how can I handle if there were problems occur?" . all these questions always come up and no solutions to them. and I am always feeling that I am not competent to be called a Bio-medical Engineer. hahah



so the last solution, I pray to Allah for whatever things that come first, I will do it. I just hope Allah will guide me to the best path in my life so that I can contribute to the family, society, religion and country.



share with me if you have any thoughts :)

Mengidam di bulan Ramadhan

Monday, June 20, 2016

Assalamualaikum.


Hi. So camna ramadhan korang so far?


Eyja nak cerita pengalaman berbuka kat masjid sultan ismail UTM ni. Since tahun ni tahun terakhir eyja akan berada di UTM, teringin lah juga nak merasa berbuka kat masjid.


Hee tapi memilih jugak hari bila nak makan *tak senonoh sangat* hahah eyja pilih nak makan time hari yang ada ayam masak lemak cili padi. Memang menjadi igauan laa teringin sangat. So pergilah time hari yang dinantikan. Tapi bila sampai, dapat lauk daging. Wuwuwu frust juga masa tuu sebab mengidam sangat hahahah 😢 ya Allah eyja, mohon bersyukur. Huhu 😅


Then the next day pergi lagi. Lagi sekali frust sebab lauk daging juga. Huhu *kalah orang mengandung frust aku ni*. So next day nya lagi plan taknak pergi masjid, nak pergi berbuka dengan kawan kat luar. Tapi time tu jugaklah menu tu nak keluar. Hahaha terus cancel plan berbuka luar semata-mata ayam masak cili padi hahah 😂😂







And hari tu juga Permaisuri Johor, Permaisuri Raja Zarith Sofia turut hadir untuk berbuka puasa. teringin juga nak tengok kot2 ada Tunku Aminah ke Che Puan Khaleeda ke. Tapi mereka tiada. Lauk2 haritu pun sedap. Hehe so akhirnya hilang juga mengidam eyja.




So apa yang korang mengidam bulan puasa nih? 😉😉 da tertunai ke belum?
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