I'm started to feel stressful .
everything's started to mess up .
when I called my mom just now , suddenly the tears were rushing out and fell down on my cheeks .
even I have problems , I'll try my best to keep it as a secret from my mom .
it's okay khadijah , it'll take short time and then everything will be over .
Ya Allah , please give me strength :( I have to face it no matter what . Amin.